Its just a week before my birthday and I'm still clueless on what to do...
... Oh well, it'll come to me in the coming days!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
Ahh... December
December, december... I love and hate december! It's my month and in a couple of weeks, it'll be my birthday. Too many things to ponder on this month, though. First, its the last month of the year and I'm still figuring out if I was able to keep my resolutions for the year. Hmmm... What exactly did I plan to resolve this year? Well, i guess... to quit smoking for one, to be able to move out and have my own condo unit, to get a job, to find new friends, to find meaning in life and to better myself . Of those I said, I think I was able to do the last three in the last quarter of this year. Haay! Life! Growing up is such a pain in the butt! Anyway, on to the next...
Second, a lot has happened in my life this year. It has really been a roller-coaster ride. I had my share of ups-and-downs but I guess the most important is what I learned from those experiences. Life truly is a journey and the path that I chose to take seemed to lead me back to where I started thus, i am taking a different path this time. The only thing I am really happy about is with the people I encountered with the path I took. Some are superficial, some are partially close while a handful of them are true and those were the ones I chose to keep. Friends do come and go but the real ones stay behind no matter what. I do thank them for sticking with me through these trying times in my life....
Third and last, my family life has never been better this year. We may have our normal arguments and fights over who's right and wrong but all in all, everything is just as they should be. A lot of my friends have been commenting on how tight my family is and I am really proud of what I have but being in a tightly-knit family has its ups and downs also. For almost 28 years now, I have been living under my parents' roof and I am grateful for every single day that I spent with them. As I said, everything is just as where it should be for now but then again, I know that soon, I have to be on my own. I know, i know... I'm like almost 10 years overdue 'coz some of the people I know were by themselves already since they were like 18 but heck, its never too late to start, right? I know that whatever happens, my family will always be there for me, no matter what. I'm just proud that they took care of me and taught me well and now, I am ready to fly on my own.
Second, a lot has happened in my life this year. It has really been a roller-coaster ride. I had my share of ups-and-downs but I guess the most important is what I learned from those experiences. Life truly is a journey and the path that I chose to take seemed to lead me back to where I started thus, i am taking a different path this time. The only thing I am really happy about is with the people I encountered with the path I took. Some are superficial, some are partially close while a handful of them are true and those were the ones I chose to keep. Friends do come and go but the real ones stay behind no matter what. I do thank them for sticking with me through these trying times in my life....
Third and last, my family life has never been better this year. We may have our normal arguments and fights over who's right and wrong but all in all, everything is just as they should be. A lot of my friends have been commenting on how tight my family is and I am really proud of what I have but being in a tightly-knit family has its ups and downs also. For almost 28 years now, I have been living under my parents' roof and I am grateful for every single day that I spent with them. As I said, everything is just as where it should be for now but then again, I know that soon, I have to be on my own. I know, i know... I'm like almost 10 years overdue 'coz some of the people I know were by themselves already since they were like 18 but heck, its never too late to start, right? I know that whatever happens, my family will always be there for me, no matter what. I'm just proud that they took care of me and taught me well and now, I am ready to fly on my own.
Monday, November 5, 2007
Happy 19th Birthday Maf!
Happy 19th Birthday Maffy!To my dearest sis, Happy 19th Birthday! Whew, you've grown up to be a fine lady. I just hope that you know that I am proud of you. I know that growing up was tough for you 'coz I was a bit of an ass with you before(haha!), but through the years, you've seen how much closer we've become. I'm really glad that I also have someone to share everything with and how you reciprocate. Just remember that I've got your back and no one can harm you 'coz I'll be there to protect you along with Kuya Ryan and Judge. Stay strong sis! No matter what happens, the four of us will stick together and through thick and thin, I know in my heart that we'll be there for one another. Love you Maf! Happy Birthday!
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Being Single
Here's another email that I got from another friend. Pretty uplifting for a single guy like me. So, to all other the single folks out there, this is for you.
Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to be.
Single gives you space to grow. Sometimes, it is harder to grow when you are too close to someone. Trees are planted far apart so they can spread their branches and become strong as they mature.
Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more difficult than learning to live with somebody else.
Single means freedom. You are free to spend a week's vacation on the beach, to take computer courses, to work late on an interesting project, to spend the day in bed with a good book or simply with a person who has read one.
Single means learning not to need a man/woman to make your life meaningful but learning to live with a man/woman because you want to be with him/her.
Single means that sometimes you will wonder why you will bite your lip and feel wistful and wonder if marriage is better.
Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in control of your life. It is liking and respecting who you are and why you are.
Single is realizing that being married is not necessarily better, it is merely different.
Single means that there could be something wonderful around the corner and you can take advantage of it.
... and Single means you are free to love again.
Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to be.
Single gives you space to grow. Sometimes, it is harder to grow when you are too close to someone. Trees are planted far apart so they can spread their branches and become strong as they mature.
Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more difficult than learning to live with somebody else.
Single means freedom. You are free to spend a week's vacation on the beach, to take computer courses, to work late on an interesting project, to spend the day in bed with a good book or simply with a person who has read one.
Single means learning not to need a man/woman to make your life meaningful but learning to live with a man/woman because you want to be with him/her.
Single means that sometimes you will wonder why you will bite your lip and feel wistful and wonder if marriage is better.
Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in control of your life. It is liking and respecting who you are and why you are.
Single is realizing that being married is not necessarily better, it is merely different.
Single means that there could be something wonderful around the corner and you can take advantage of it.
... and Single means you are free to love again.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
What Hurts...
I got this e-mail from my friend Marynessa and boy! Doesn't this seem to be true? Sad fact is... not only women undergo the hurt and pain of losing someone and breaking up with the ones they love, men also go through these things though often times we'd rather shut up and not talk about what we feel... Hey, it ain't gay when men cry and feel hurt, right? Keeping in touch with your true feelings, I guess, will make you a better and stronger person. So here's to you Nessa! (Eto na yung email mo... hehehe)
WHAT HURTS.....
1. Letting go of person you've just learned to love.
2. Reminiscing the good times you shared together.
3. Shielding your heart from loving somebody.
4. Trying to hide what you really feel.
5. Trying to hide what you really feel.
6. Loving a person too much.
7. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up.
8. Having the right love at the wrong time.
9. Taking the risk to fall in love again.
10 . Hiding your relationship from someone else.
11. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend.
12. Letting go, because every time you see that person, you only fall deeper.
13. Holding back only to find out it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out.
14. Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with.
15. Finding the perfect person with only one problem. They don't love you the way you want them to.
16. Helping the one you love make ligaw to your friend. (Sosy! hahaha)
17. Seeing the one you love crying for someone else.
18. The waiting also hurts like hell.
19. Having to hear, "I've met someone" (galing toh sa "My bestfriend wedding")
20. Agreeing to their wish to just be friends.
21 . Asking their freedom back because they'd be happier with the new person.
22. Asking you to forget that everything happened and be normal friends again.
23. Hearing that you're treated as a little sister/big bro.
24. Sharing their future plans for their new love with you.
25. You stopped being friends because their new love asked him to.
26. Being denied in front of people.
27. Telling you lies where they had been when actually, they were with a new friend or an old flame.
28. They told you they'd be leaving you to return to their ex (the one they left for you!)
29. Breaking someone's heart.
30. Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy; that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you their commitment unless they fix themselves, then you are left hanging for a moment. Then they say, time will tell. Ang labo but you still decided to hope in them and trust them. (Ouch! hehehe)
31. Pretending you're OK when inside you're dying. (Isa pang Ouch!)
32. Pretending to be strong and recognizing your weaknesses.
33. Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have.
34 . Being with someone you can't actually love.
35. Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love.
36. Being in love.
37. Letting go even if you really don't want to; having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision.
38. Seeing the person you love hurt because of you and not being able to help that person.
39. Having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable.
40. Having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that the things will never be the same again when he/she doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before.
41. Admitting that you love someone despite their imperfections.
42 . Finding out that the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her.
43. Realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
44. The thought that this person, used to really love you and you loved them as well kaso you didn't give enough kaya they gave up on you na.
45. Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else.
46. Seeing your partner battle for death.
47. Making a promise. And realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
48. Believing love exists after you've been hurt.
49. Learning to forgive, learning to forget, learning to trust and learning to love again.
50. BUT the hardest thing really is... learning to love yourself. We tend to forget to do this. Always.
WHAT HURTS.....
1. Letting go of person you've just learned to love.
2. Reminiscing the good times you shared together.
3. Shielding your heart from loving somebody.
4. Trying to hide what you really feel.
5. Trying to hide what you really feel.
6. Loving a person too much.
7. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up.
8. Having the right love at the wrong time.
9. Taking the risk to fall in love again.
10 . Hiding your relationship from someone else.
11. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend.
12. Letting go, because every time you see that person, you only fall deeper.
13. Holding back only to find out it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out.
14. Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with.
15. Finding the perfect person with only one problem. They don't love you the way you want them to.
16. Helping the one you love make ligaw to your friend. (Sosy! hahaha)
17. Seeing the one you love crying for someone else.
18. The waiting also hurts like hell.
19. Having to hear, "I've met someone" (galing toh sa "My bestfriend wedding")
20. Agreeing to their wish to just be friends.
21 . Asking their freedom back because they'd be happier with the new person.
22. Asking you to forget that everything happened and be normal friends again.
23. Hearing that you're treated as a little sister/big bro.
24. Sharing their future plans for their new love with you.
25. You stopped being friends because their new love asked him to.
26. Being denied in front of people.
27. Telling you lies where they had been when actually, they were with a new friend or an old flame.
28. They told you they'd be leaving you to return to their ex (the one they left for you!)
29. Breaking someone's heart.
30. Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy; that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you their commitment unless they fix themselves, then you are left hanging for a moment. Then they say, time will tell. Ang labo but you still decided to hope in them and trust them. (Ouch! hehehe)
31. Pretending you're OK when inside you're dying. (Isa pang Ouch!)
32. Pretending to be strong and recognizing your weaknesses.
33. Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have.
34 . Being with someone you can't actually love.
35. Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love.
36. Being in love.
37. Letting go even if you really don't want to; having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision.
38. Seeing the person you love hurt because of you and not being able to help that person.
39. Having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable.
40. Having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that the things will never be the same again when he/she doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before.
41. Admitting that you love someone despite their imperfections.
42 . Finding out that the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her.
43. Realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
44. The thought that this person, used to really love you and you loved them as well kaso you didn't give enough kaya they gave up on you na.
45. Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else.
46. Seeing your partner battle for death.
47. Making a promise. And realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
48. Believing love exists after you've been hurt.
49. Learning to forgive, learning to forget, learning to trust and learning to love again.
50. BUT the hardest thing really is... learning to love yourself. We tend to forget to do this. Always.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Almost a month of hiatus
Whew, i can't believe that it has almost been a month since my last post. Oh well, thanks to my *darn* DSL service, after my last post here, my internet connection got cut off then my landline went bizerk... I finally got everything back on last week so here are some shout outs that i missed...
BELATED HAPPY 72nd BIRTHDAY MAMA!
(JUNE 26)
Thank you for always being there for me. You took care of me since and I appreciate everything that you have done for me. Growing up, tagged as a "LOLA's BOY" was tough, but heck, no one can ever replace what you did for me. I was lucky to have you by myside and never did I regret anything. You taught me well Mama and I love you with all my heart. I know that God is watching over you all the time and we have lots more decades to celebrate. I LOVE YOU MAMA... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
BELATED HAPPY 72nd BIRTHDAY MAMA!(JUNE 26)
Thank you for always being there for me. You took care of me since and I appreciate everything that you have done for me. Growing up, tagged as a "LOLA's BOY" was tough, but heck, no one can ever replace what you did for me. I was lucky to have you by myside and never did I regret anything. You taught me well Mama and I love you with all my heart. I know that God is watching over you all the time and we have lots more decades to celebrate. I LOVE YOU MAMA... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUYA!
(JULY 9)
(JULY 9)
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