Tuesday, December 11, 2007
A Week Before My Birthday!
... Oh well, it'll come to me in the coming days!
Monday, December 3, 2007
Ahh... December
Second, a lot has happened in my life this year. It has really been a roller-coaster ride. I had my share of ups-and-downs but I guess the most important is what I learned from those experiences. Life truly is a journey and the path that I chose to take seemed to lead me back to where I started thus, i am taking a different path this time. The only thing I am really happy about is with the people I encountered with the path I took. Some are superficial, some are partially close while a handful of them are true and those were the ones I chose to keep. Friends do come and go but the real ones stay behind no matter what. I do thank them for sticking with me through these trying times in my life....
Third and last, my family life has never been better this year. We may have our normal arguments and fights over who's right and wrong but all in all, everything is just as they should be. A lot of my friends have been commenting on how tight my family is and I am really proud of what I have but being in a tightly-knit family has its ups and downs also. For almost 28 years now, I have been living under my parents' roof and I am grateful for every single day that I spent with them. As I said, everything is just as where it should be for now but then again, I know that soon, I have to be on my own. I know, i know... I'm like almost 10 years overdue 'coz some of the people I know were by themselves already since they were like 18 but heck, its never too late to start, right? I know that whatever happens, my family will always be there for me, no matter what. I'm just proud that they took care of me and taught me well and now, I am ready to fly on my own.
Monday, November 5, 2007
Happy 19th Birthday Maf!
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Being Single
Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to be.
Single gives you space to grow. Sometimes, it is harder to grow when you are too close to someone. Trees are planted far apart so they can spread their branches and become strong as they mature.
Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more difficult than learning to live with somebody else.
Single means freedom. You are free to spend a week's vacation on the beach, to take computer courses, to work late on an interesting project, to spend the day in bed with a good book or simply with a person who has read one.
Single means learning not to need a man/woman to make your life meaningful but learning to live with a man/woman because you want to be with him/her.
Single means that sometimes you will wonder why you will bite your lip and feel wistful and wonder if marriage is better.
Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in control of your life. It is liking and respecting who you are and why you are.
Single is realizing that being married is not necessarily better, it is merely different.
Single means that there could be something wonderful around the corner and you can take advantage of it.
... and Single means you are free to love again.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
What Hurts...
WHAT HURTS.....
1. Letting go of person you've just learned to love.
2. Reminiscing the good times you shared together.
3. Shielding your heart from loving somebody.
4. Trying to hide what you really feel.
5. Trying to hide what you really feel.
6. Loving a person too much.
7. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up.
8. Having the right love at the wrong time.
9. Taking the risk to fall in love again.
10 . Hiding your relationship from someone else.
11. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend.
12. Letting go, because every time you see that person, you only fall deeper.
13. Holding back only to find out it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out.
14. Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with.
15. Finding the perfect person with only one problem. They don't love you the way you want them to.
16. Helping the one you love make ligaw to your friend. (Sosy! hahaha)
17. Seeing the one you love crying for someone else.
18. The waiting also hurts like hell.
19. Having to hear, "I've met someone" (galing toh sa "My bestfriend wedding")
20. Agreeing to their wish to just be friends.
21 . Asking their freedom back because they'd be happier with the new person.
22. Asking you to forget that everything happened and be normal friends again.
23. Hearing that you're treated as a little sister/big bro.
24. Sharing their future plans for their new love with you.
25. You stopped being friends because their new love asked him to.
26. Being denied in front of people.
27. Telling you lies where they had been when actually, they were with a new friend or an old flame.
28. They told you they'd be leaving you to return to their ex (the one they left for you!)
29. Breaking someone's heart.
30. Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy; that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you their commitment unless they fix themselves, then you are left hanging for a moment. Then they say, time will tell. Ang labo but you still decided to hope in them and trust them. (Ouch! hehehe)
31. Pretending you're OK when inside you're dying. (Isa pang Ouch!)
32. Pretending to be strong and recognizing your weaknesses.
33. Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have.
34 . Being with someone you can't actually love.
35. Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love.
36. Being in love.
37. Letting go even if you really don't want to; having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision.
38. Seeing the person you love hurt because of you and not being able to help that person.
39. Having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable.
40. Having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that the things will never be the same again when he/she doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before.
41. Admitting that you love someone despite their imperfections.
42 . Finding out that the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her.
43. Realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
44. The thought that this person, used to really love you and you loved them as well kaso you didn't give enough kaya they gave up on you na.
45. Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else.
46. Seeing your partner battle for death.
47. Making a promise. And realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
48. Believing love exists after you've been hurt.
49. Learning to forgive, learning to forget, learning to trust and learning to love again.
50. BUT the hardest thing really is... learning to love yourself. We tend to forget to do this. Always.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Almost a month of hiatus
(JUNE 26)
Thank you for always being there for me. You took care of me since and I appreciate everything that you have done for me. Growing up, tagged as a "LOLA's BOY" was tough, but heck, no one can ever replace what you did for me. I was lucky to have you by myside and never did I regret anything. You taught me well Mama and I love you with all my heart. I know that God is watching over you all the time and we have lots more decades to celebrate. I LOVE YOU MAMA... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
(JULY 9)
Sunday, June 17, 2007
More Celebrations
First off, Happy Father's Day, Dad! Thank you for everything. You just don't know how proud I am to have a father like you. We may have our "up's and down's" and disagreements at times but I cherish and treasure every moment we have together as a family. I know that I may not be the vocal one in the family for I rarely speak what's in my mind but I hope that somehow, you are able to feel my love and respect for you. The past year has been a roller coaster ride for our family. Thank you for sticking with me and giving me your inputs and advice (though they are unsolicited at times! heheh) I just want you to know that you don't have to worry too much about me though 'coz you raised me well (both you and mom) and whatever direction my life would gear to, know that I will be okay and I will make you proud. I love you Dad!
Second, Happy Father's Day to my brother Ryan, too. Thank God for my niece, Sophie. She had been a blessing in this family. I am proud of you, kuya! You're life had a complete turn-around when you became a father. Props to you bro and way to go!
Last but definitely not the least, Happy 13th Birthday Judge! I'm happy 'coz you are growing up to become a good person. Man, you have the brains and looks bro... Make those girls cry! hehehe... But seriously though, just remember that what ever you do, I got your back. So don't be afraid to reach out for your dream 'coz I'm here to support you all the way. Study hard for it will put you in places where both of us (your kuya's) weren't able to go. I am proud of you bro and I love you.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Lotsa Celebrations!
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Casa San Pablo
No Pain, No Gain!
But like what I said, I finally had the courage to take-over my body and enroll at a gym and finally, after 3 months of lifting weights and 200 crunches a day, I am finally seeing some improvements. My arms are finally getting bigger, my love-handles shrunk (there's still a little left though...), my chest are getting firmer and a little bigger (err... CHEST and not "boobies" anymore! yahoo!) and my legs are stronger and getting some size too... YAY! I think I need about 3 more months to achieve what I really want for my body... I just need to endure more pain though... huhuhu.... but hey, NO PAIN, NO GAIN, right? I just hope that after 3 months, I'll look back on this post and say "I DID IT! Way to go!"
Monday, June 4, 2007
Rainy Days!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Heroes
I have been addicted to this show since I first saw it last March. We were in Baguio for Holy Week and my sis brought the DVD. At first, I thought it would just be another boring show... all talkies with "hero-like" adventures but I WAS WRONG! Man, the first episode was really fun, packed with all the special-effects. Yay! I'm in-love! haha. What I love about this show is that it's not your typical comic-based series. The plot is so interesting with all the twist and turns. It's somewhat a cross between X-Men and Butterfly Effect. I really love this show. And I can't wait to see the final 5 episodes. I think the final episode is screening in the U.S. as I speak. So, i better get my bitcomet ready and download the torrent in like an hour! CHEERS!
Monday, May 21, 2007
What the???
Bills, Bills, Bills
Oh well, think I better get a more stable job soon or else I won't have enough dough to pay the coming bills! :) And just to justify my mood... here's DC with Bills, Bills, Bills! Hahaha....
Blast From The Past
One of my blockmates from college recently added me on her friendster list. Trina made a new account dedicated to our block in DLSU. LR-21 Batch 97. Man, I can't believe its been 10 years already since I got into college! Whoa! I'm getting old... Well, as what they say.. With Age comes Memory Lapses! hahaha... I dunno... Wisdom? Is that the right term? Am I more wise now than I was ten years ago? I guess not... I think I'm much practical now than before... Wisdom is such a big word and heck, I'm only 27 so don't expect too much of me! <--- That's the child in me speaking! :P
Anyway, this sudden blast from the past made me look back on those happy memories back in college. The unending surprise quizzes, reviews, midterms, CUTTING CLASSES, TAMBAY SA U.M., YOSI BREAKS in STRC, the parking space at the Beach, the famous steak ni ate Em's... Hay... I miss the good old days. I can still remember the barkada's formed plus the sad fact that eventually one or more of them become complete strangers to you...
....., hey! I don't wanna end on a sad note. Lemme recall the barkada's we formed in our block.
The Chingga Tu Madre: Me, Boyet, Dexter, Diego, Jeff, Leslie, Angge and Arnie (who later on became a part of the GaSaMaSha, hehehe) ...
GaSaMaSha: Gay, Sarah, Maricar and Sharry (They eventually became GasaMaShAr coz Arnie joined them) *laugh*
Mga Saksi Ni Chona: Chona (Of course), Llaverne, Wet, Van, Karina, Grace and Adelle
Rizza and The Pussycats: Rizza, Te, Mimi, Rachel and Coline?
"I forgot what they call themselves": Jaycie, Pem, Bhob and Tinay (who eventually joined our Chingga 'kada)
Then there are the floaters: RB, Atoy, Lizette, Pepe
I forgot the others already so if any of you are reading my post, kindly remind me...
(cue the song again... Not enough vitamins.... hahaha)
Caffeine Overdose
Is there such thing as a caffeine overdose? Hmmm... I admit, I'm a heavy coffee drinker. 6-8 cups of coffee a day is just average. Maybe that's why I'm suddenly feeling my heart pounding so hard and my stomach growling... Acidity... that's what I maybe suffering from now... Man... But, heck, I love mah coffee and i love it with no whip and non-fat milk (or half and half) *wink*
Hmm... Maybe that's the reason why I also get a lot of memory lapses? Maybe or is it just because of lack of vitamins...
(intro the commercial... Not enough vitamins, kulang sa tulog? hahahaha....)
Man, i really should lessen my coffee dose... I know, I know... I MUST! Think I better be drinking milk again so as to help with my addiction and eventually gain some pounds...
Dilemma
After opening a blog site on friendster, i suddenly came to realize that there are tons of other blog sites where you can do so much more... No offense to friendster blogs though. But hey, I cant add videos from youtube there and/or do fancy stuff's unless I have a credit card or something.
I feel that I have more to share that's why I opened this. Now the dilemma, should I keep my friendster blog or totally move to this site?... or should I maintain the two sites? Tough job but let's see where i'll end up... for now I'll try to maintain both... better update the two sites and get my butt off to work.
Just Before I Go To Bed...
Hurrah!
I Wish!